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About the author
The blessings of this life gifted me have been so full of the fulfilling of endless desires, the beckoning of satya in my heart, and the overwhelming feelings of sorrow of being confined to space place and time in this body given me to walk this dance.
From being gifted this body and geneology with many talents such as that of athleticism,
I was able to partake in the creation of pure athletic expression of movement on rollerblades in tune with a complete industry manifestation around these actions,
I have known true soul love,
felt the depths of sorrow with death luring me into her depths,
created and expressing through many forms of art's expression,
raised and raising a beloved son in this world.
I was born into a family of unbounded unconditional love, support, and acceptance,
provided the opportunity to travel the world,
built and played adult cars with friends and satiated desires for speed in cars, bicycles, and motorcycles.
I have been alotted the path of Yoga and tasted many of her flavors of the one food,
felt and will continue to feel the stillness of nature under my bare feet and roll upon her beautiful mountanous curves on a bicycle.
I have been blessed with multiple deep soul friendships through the various cycles and times of this life.
Ever hearing the calling deep within my soul of truth throughout all action and ways of the days,
In gratitude do I lay pranamed to you oh life! Jai MA!
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The seeds of desire planted in my soul awaiting to blossom are a many. Being able to seen my son express and be successful in this world, continuing to get out of the way of myself to truly express, share, and give to/ help humanity, walk the earth and ride bicycles in natures busom, travel and share the gospel of Truth as she makes herself known unto me, and help humanity as I am called to do so, are desires that will be with me throughout my days.
Having fulfilled many worldly desires that served their time and now no longer serve me, this has given me a place and space of reflection and feeling of expression to share what I may
This is my true, honest expression of words, song, and other manifestations of the Sadhana provided me in Truth. No longer can I hold it in for fear of the world of relativity, of objectifying the feelings and reflections of my own heart unto the subjective perceptions of others.
What is the point of bringing words and song into creation, if not to share with creation?
And so, with a swift kick in the bum from divine mother, I lay my heart on a platter, my life's reflections of full vulnerability unto thine subjectivity, My utmost sacred yoga of song, Bhakti of my heart of hearts, words of jnana, and all the truth bestowed upon me, I give to you.
If you have found these sharings and offerings, it is only by the karmic dance of thine calling. I hope you take as you will, Use as you will, and may these offerings help align thy will with the will given ye to be!
And if they don't jive, resonate, rather than hate, peace be with you!
Sadness 1999
Sadness written 1999
When I am happy, deep down I feel sad.
The happiness is feigned, but the sadness is real.
The sadness is there to stay,
While the happiness comes and goes.
Why is the sadness so strong,
Yet the happiness so weak?
The moment the sadness appears,
The happiness becomes lost,
But when the happiness is there,
The sadness isn’t far behind.
I go from happy to sad in a brief moment,
But from sad to happy in a long while.
They are both emotions inside of me.
They are supposed to be weighed and used equally,
But as I feel,
The sadness is stronger and never leaves.
The happiness may sometimes overcome me.
That is only when I am in a good mood,
But those moods,
They are far and few.
That is because the sadness is always there.
I don’t see how people can always be happy,
When all I feel is a forever long sadness.
When I sit and think, there is mostly bad,
While all the good should come to my mind.
My life is filled with a lot more good than bad,
But the sadness still clouds my thoughts.
Maybe that’s just the way I am,
Or maybe that’s just the way I was meant to be.
I really want to be happy and have that warm feeling,
But all that’s there is cold, dark, and dreary.
I just wish I could truly feel happy
With my sadness completely lost.
That won’t happen though,
Only because the sadness is always trailing close behind.
I could fool myself and toy my thoughts,
But that quickly ends with the sad rushing into it’s place.
A smile or a laugh may overcome my face,
But it soon dries off for the sadness to float right back into it’s place.
Maybe my emotions aren’t correct,
Or maybe I am just thinking negatively about everything.
After I cheer up though,
I go right back to sadness.
The sadness rules my life,
Only because the happiness leaves too quickly.
The constant fighting conversations in my head
Cause these emotions that I feel.
It’s like the good and bad are constantly battling,
But the bad is big and strong,
While the good is small and weak.
If the happiness could stand up to the sadness,
Then maybe the bully sadness could go away for a while.
I may think too much on my feelings,
But when I am sad, I am sad,
And that’s all I feel.
I really don’t like this feeling of sadness,
So I am off to get a briefly feigned happiness
To overcome my more conquering sadness for a brief moment.
I don't condemn. I don't convert. This is the calling you have heard! Bring all the lovers to the fold, cuz no one is gonna lose their soul!
Ziggy Marley
